Update

BMR: 343.5
FMR: 343.35

Wt

W: 154

If I can make it two more weeks, I will have a break. Right now, I am not well.

Update

BMR: 343.5
FMR: 344.85

We went hiking/walking at another very close county park this afternoon. It was nice to be outside, and I think this may be my favorite park so far. It just seems a little wilder than the other parks, and there were fewer people than usual. Fun! And we drove down to the next big park on that street, and on our roundabout way home found another park! This place is covered with parks! It's so funny that we are just in awe of all the parks and greenways and bike paths that exist in Raleigh and the surrounding areas. In Athens, maybe the parks were too familiar to us to be remarkable--and there certainly weren't any neighborhood pocket parks. Plus, Athens is much smaller than Raleigh. And what we are used to thinking of as "the city" is Atlanta--and Raleigh is hugely different (in great ways) from Atlanta.

Why, hello there?

Hi.

I have leapt from any healthy, disciplined living wagon that exists, and am now drinking sodas, eating desserts 3 times a day, and taking naps as exercise. Bwhaha. What a life.

Actually, it is pretty awful. Most of it is a reaction to the bar exam which is looming at the end of the month, and which I have suddenly realized I may not pass. I may not pass, and this would be SO embarrassing. Well, half the time I think it would be so embarrassing because I would have to re-apply and get people to vouch for me all over again. The other half I think, Who cares, it is just A test. My self-worth is not determined by whether I have to take the bar exam again next year.

So, a lot of panicky, feeling like crap, anxiety. I've decided to augment that with eating lots of sugar and caffeine in order to heighten the anxiety and add headaches and icky stomach feelings. When I feel bad, I really want to feel bad! Icky.

Sigh. I really don't think I can make any plans for exercising or eating better until August, because if I start that, I will develop the most wonderful plan EVAH and creating the plan and working on it will take up valuable time in which I could learn about child support/wills and trusts/contract revocation/larceny/mortgages/business associations/adverse possession/products liability/hearsay/etc X 100! Did I learn anything in law school? Sigh.